god this episode was perfect. a perfect set up for the next ep. the parallels to the 10th and 11th regenerations absolutely broke me. "Winning? Is that what you think it's about? I'm not trying to win. I'm not doing this because I want to beat someone, or because I hate someone, or because, because I want to blame someone. It's not because it's fun, God knows it's not because it's easy. It's not even because it works, because it hardly ever does. I do what I do because it's right! Because it's decent! And above all, it's kind. It's just that. Just kind. If I run away today, good people will die. If I stand and fight, some of them might live. Maybe not many, maybe not for long. Hey, you know, maybe there's no point in any of this at all, but it's the best I can do, so I'm going to do it. And I will stand here doing it till it kills me. You're going to die too, some day. How will that be? Have you thought about it? What would you die for? Who I am is where I stand. Where I stand, is where I fall." this speech was acted so fucking well and it PERFECTLY sums up who the doctor is and why he does what he does. “I don't want to change again. NEVER AGAIN! I can't keep on being somebody else. Whatever it is, I'm staying.” 💔💔💔💔 1 more episode to go, praying for my mental health after this next one 🥲